Don't care who reads this just want to blog.

I just feel like blabbing so I will...

God has been so good to me.. I can't explain it. I live with Him, I talk to Him, I breathe Him everyday. It's amazing. But at the same time there are other battles that come with that. But with Him by my side I am A- okay :)

Uhm. Wish I could talk to a certain someone some more. I miss talking to 'em. But someday I know we will real soon :)

Finally, cleaned the house from all that garbage. It's left with a room or two and our house is officially transformed..God did every bit of it. He directed every bit of it. It is amazing because I would not have come up with all of that.

It's nice to be hanging out with Cherry again..and her lil baby. And her best friend who is now opening up to me when I can promise you that she was so cold to me initially. But out of the blue she is like...talking to me. What a miracle. Her apartment is so cute. I wanna live there but I prefer my little compartment of a room :P

I miss some of my old friends. Circumstances put us apart but I still love them. I think I am changing. Either its good.. I hope so. I know I don't desire things I used to desire anymore... Who am I kidding? LOL. I am human.. I come to a point where I just want to give up.. But I remember what He has done for me and I think I am stupid to. Why give up on everything when the same God that created you has been there for you...since...ever? And that same God appeared to me in so many instances...why should I just walk away from all that. And find what? Happiness? Psh..

I don't understand why things happen sometimes. I don't. But I know God does. And at times saying certain things to somebody or doing certain things makes me question ... It's scary..the things He can make you do. And you know you are going through fire and brimstone for saying it but at the same time you got to. Either way, you have a choice.. To not do it and regret it or to just walk through that fire and brimstone anyway. And when you do, you will feel the heat but not even a thread would catch on fire :). Thats how amazing letting God take control can be. Yes, I made my mistakes, I let my pride get in the way, I could get a little bit too personal than necessary...but I just want to obey Him.

Lately, God has helped my brother and I teach a Bible Study with a close friend of dad's. And we have been teaching for a couple weeks. And then all of a sudden last sunday, He got the Holy Ghost right in his SHOP!! God gave him simple instructions in which he obeyed. It was incredible. I could feel Jesus and the angels just rejoicing in the shop with us. It was so beautiful because he had been wanting it for so long and God just finally gave it to him and there was a beautiful prophecy given. It was the best experience ever.. I am so honored to be able to be a part of that. I will forever cherish these experiences. I pray it won't die out.

Sometimes I am so tensed. I put my mind on a problem too much. Rather than let go I worry...and pout...and allow all kinds of negativity run through my head. So confused. But somehow Jesus puts his hands on my shoulder and all of a sudden I am so relaxed. He lays everything so simple for me. My life is so simple right now. Yes, His burden is light and His yoke IS easy.. Very. Just obey Him..I want to do better though. I was feeling a little discouraged and upset today but ranting has really calmed my nerves down. God knows I need to rant :D

I have been praying for some things and hope that He answers them. I know I have to watch what I wish for. But I claimed this thing. And it doesn't look so bright right now but it would be foolish to back out. Cause it is so worth it. I don't care what the enemy throws in my way, I will fight back...infact God will fight for me. Because I love this thing. I want to experience a bright future with this. And I know God will do it for me. I just battle with discouraging thoughts at time to time but whenever I seek counsel in Jesus, He lets me know everything is going to be alright.

I can just brag on and on about how awesome God is. But it wouldn't end. It wouldn't. I wish others can experience this love of God. It is so pure and so warm. It is so good and so sweet :) Honestly, this isn't intended for anyone to read. Initially I did but now I don't care. Cause I just need to express my feelings anyway.

I miss you though. I pray for you, though. I know God will open your eyes someday. I hope so :)